Little Stories and such.

before you begin something or even say something - even if its something you consider small - that is going to affect another person think about what could come from that. 

we’re all guilty of it, its human nature to feel pain, its inevitable that you’ll say something inappropriate and inflict some sort of pain on another human, but being down right mean and abusive is rude and disrespectful. It not only makes that person feel horrible you lower yourself.

#thankfulfor 

followed by something about yourself that you’re thankful for. 

Whether it be street smarts, ingenuity, honesty, humour, your boobs… anything about you that you’re thankful for. 

People have really got to start taking pride in theirselves. 

Its sickening almost to read and hear about the self loathing and hatred. 

Ive got to say im not a fan of curve balls. 

those events or moments in ones life that make you think you’ll never get on with life. 

or that the plans you did have are going to change. Or at last be post poned. 

Or change your mind almost completely. 

I thought i could have done friends with benefits without the repercussions of feelings and emotions. but what do you know it crept up on me and me bam! there i am.. standing in a crowded city only thinking of one. And wouldnt you know it. that pesky love just brned as brightly as ever. I love him and as much as im fully aware that he wants to be single and nothing will come from it. I just cant walk away.

Any other time and i would but he.. he is a game changer. 

i dont want to walk, i just want to enjoy what we have together because its the best thing ive ever had and he - well, he’s just amaze balls. 

ive thought long and hard about this whole thing theres been many a tear shed over the whole thing. Theres even been the opportunity to walk away, be with someone who would - 

who would have agreed with everything i said and done whatever i wanted. But i dont want a little bitch i want someone with the strength and conviction to stand up to me. I could have slept with guys i knew just to try to get over him, i could have made out with strangers to forget but i didnt. 

I hung out with my friends and drank occassionally, after it all i came to my own conclusions. 

Its not who i am anymore. We’re not in a relationship but i’m a one guy at a time only girl. Its been 18 months since i have slept with anyone but him, 18 months since ive kissed another guy and 18 months of curveballs and ups and very low downs for me to get to this conclusion.