tonight was the night !
I called my ex because I desperately wanted something of mine he had - it was a long shot..,but still.
so besides the fact it proved that I wasn’t the only one t throw out everything of his that I had - read as burn, on my behalf -
I proved to myself I had no feelings for him anymore and that’s rather fantastic. I feel like I should toast myself.
Its only taken 6 months solid - easier than I thought, I am genuinely free of the binds of our relationship. I am completely free. free from my own mind.
undoubtedly from time t time i’ll think of him. both of the good and bad but it no longer hurts. I had someone tell me that eventually it will feel like it didn’t even happen that it’ll be a distant memory and that Ill remember the feelings but it wont affect me the same way. And tonight was that night that I realised that it was true.
Its over. my heart feels less fragile now.
it is an experience to learn from.